Feeling almost normal...My stamina is a little low. I am very concerned about seeing the surgeon again today.. I am mad at her and sad about the situation. I usually know what will be happening and have planned my strategy of attack. Today I'm not sure what the hell will happen. Will she open the wound more, pack the wound or leave the wound. Will she stick a culture swab in there?

Will she tell me what a bad patient I was and look what I did to it? But you know I don't care about that...Shit happens and it did. It could always be worse.

My goal is to get through the Chemo and the wound is causing a distraction. Should I just have had the whole thing chopped off ?